joan

2008-01-27T15:08:00.000+08:00

538 posts; has been here for nearly 4 years, since the day I took my O-levels results. It has been long and I am pretty comfortable here.

I guess it's time to start anew and I am moving on from here.

*Still working hard on the last resolution*

2007-12-31T01:38:00.000+08:00

Last Day of 2007.

31 December 2007; this year has been a fast one for me. The year that I joined the digit 2 club, indeed time passed real fast when you start to see 2 in your age!

2007 is not an easy year for me, when many people whom I know leave for the other world and lot of emotions to overcome. It is when I ask the question; "Who am I and Why am I here?"

Entering the workforce is never easy, taking up new appointments and other committments will only make your weekends burnt, getting driving license needs time, getting involved in many accidents are never fun, tears are not only for the weaklings, it is not easy to earn money but darm easy to spend them and many others.

Looking back at the new year resolutions I made for 2007, well I can say I fulfilled all THREE of them! *claps claps* except for the one that only I know, it is not an easy one but I am sure someday I will be able to tell everyone that I got it!

New year resolutions for 2008? I shall go reflect about 2007 and think ahead for 2008 before I can list them down!

2007 is a rough one for me, will 2008 be a better one?

I see lots of things/events/activities charging towards me! [:

2007-12-27T16:46:00.000+08:00

Has been long!

Hello! It has been some time since I last update my blog; I doubt there are much readers either.

My schedule was pretty much packed since 20th December with birthday celebreation, secondary school friends gatherings, RCY dinner, VI retreat, poly friends gathering and a few more gatherings and dinners this weekend! Not forgetting going out with my family!

Although I will be out of my house most of the days, I will definitely find time to rot at home! Be it half a day or a full day, the feeling of being at home and not doing anything is the best (of cause not for a long period of time lah!)

Being out can be painful for the pockets too! Need to pay for food, presents, carpark, parking fine(that is if I am so suay), drinks and ERP but lucky not petrol! That is one of the reason why I perfer to drive, as I dont have to pay for the petrol. The other reasons will be I hate to squeeze with others when taking public transport and also we always need to rush for the last train!

I love driving and I want to own a car soon! [:

*Merry Christmas (abit late) and Happy New Year*

2007-12-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

Youth Expedition Project (YEP) Facilitator and Leader Training Course

On usual weekends I will be out supper-ing with my friends till 6am in the morning and sleep through my afternoon, but I woke up at 7.30am today and the day before and dragged myself to Joo Chiat to attend the YEP Facilitator and Leader Training Course

It was not easy for me to get to Joo Chiat as I have never been there before, nearly missed the training center. *cold sweat* Reached the training center and most of the participants were there, choosing their feeling card and stringing their braclets.

Met Wee Heong, our course facilitator, and gotten my course material, chose my feeling card and stringed my braclet. Met quite a few of NYP staff whom I have never met in campus and now we are attending the same training course.

Went through the sharing/ice-breaking and our "ICE" melted quite fast! I would say our group is very vocal and we have many experienced facilitators and leaders who are able to relate many of our modules to their past experience. Like what Wee Heong commented, "this group has a very strong group dynamic".

Learnt alot from both Wee Heong and my fellow course mates, as usual I am the youngest among the whole group *grins*so I would be able to learnt alot alot from everyone, be it for YEP or in other aspect of my life.

I can't deny that during the 2 day course, I feel like backing out from YEP but it is how I want my students/peers to learn from the service that push me on. Definitely I will need lots of courage to faciliate and co-lead them especially when the life of 18 students/peers are under my belt.

It is so contradicting, in the very initial stage, YEP is the one that nearly destory my life; making me so demoralise and that was the lowest point of my leadership "life" but after these 2 days it make me realise lots of things, such as how much I can affect a person's life by what I say or what I do. It may just be a simple 18 days of a person's life, lets say the student is 18 and he will probably live till 80, but that 18 days of overseas community service can be a turning point for him. A good or bad turning point will be determine by YOU! The impact will be great especially when our mind is very fragile.

After 2 days of theory course, I realised this training course not only help us during YEP but also in other areas, for me it will be in RCY. I believe with the modules learnt in YEP, they will be able to help me to "grow and learn" and also faciliate better in RCY activities especially if I am leading a group of trainees.

The art of facilitation and leadership is borderless and never ending. You can't learn everything from just pure reading, you will need to get in action and observe how others facilitate. Never be selfish! Share your experience and others will be able to learn from it! On the other hand, you will be able to have 3rd party comments and they will be able to help you in return.

Looking forward to the residential campin Batam, I am so sure that we are gona have lots of fun and also learnt alot from each other as we will be practicing what we have learnt during these 2 days and fine-tune them according to individual.

The art of facilitation and leadership will only stop when your passion has burnt out

2007-12-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hectic yet meaningful

Had a pretty hectic week so far, have been rushing for many things. After all the rushing, I feel that whatever I have done is meaningful.

Have been doing the tribute video of the 3 NYP graduates who left us during a dragonboat tragedy in Cambodia since Monday. Much of my time have been spend on this tribute video, as this is the very last thing I can do for 3 of them, I am looking for a perfect video.

Edit after edit and finally the video is up to my satisfaction this afternoon, the video is meant for the finale item during Orion Singing Competition. The finalists of the competition sang "Remember me this way" by Jordan Hill together with the tribute video.

Together with the song, the tribute video really touches many hearts who are at the Orion Singing Competition today at TFA. I would want everyone at TFA to know how great the 3 of them were!

I still feel the pain in my heart but I will always remember what they have taught all of us!
*smile*

2007-11-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

5 young heros

Attended the 5 young promising men memorial service today at Mandai Crematorium. Out of the 5 men, 3 were graduates of NYP and I know Reuben Kee personally.

Worked with Reuben for a few events when I was year 1, I was a noob back then and he was 2 year my senior. When I first saw him at the Auditorium, his smile just caught my eyes. To be frank, he is the eye candy for many girls out there, including me!

Have been reading the comments from both his friendster and the facebook group that was setup for him. He has left his footprints in many lifes of others, crossed their path and was a good example for many juniors.

They were once a NYP dragon and will alway be one. I believe the young dragons felt their passion for dragonbaot and was waiting for Reuben and Jeremy to come back and coach the team but it will never happen. I believe the young dragons will do their best for compeitions, not only for themselves but also for Reuben, Jeremy and Poh San.

They will continue to live in our hearts, especially for the young dragons. Lets not be sad for their departure but be happy that they are no more in pain. Be happy that they have achieved what many others cant achieve in their life and impacted so many people without knowing.

They should be rowing among the clouds now and looking after all the rowers out there in the water. They would want their passion for dragonboat to continue burning and their buddies to help them live their life to the fullest.

The 5 young heros have taught me many things to0.
- To cherish the time spent with family members;
- To treasure what you have now;
- Live your life to the fullest;
- Go all out to achieve what you want to achieve;
- and many more.

2007-11-28T10:53:00.000+08:00

RCY Challenge - Challenge Oneself to Achieve!

The main committee had around 1 month to plan the camp, everyone was rushing and emails were flying in every minute! We need to do lots of travelling to get the logistics for the entire camp!

On 23rd November, we received the instructors and cadets for the camp. We had a hard time squeezing everyone into the Haw Par Hall. The camp started with marking of attendence and collecting of camp fees! We were ahead of time for the 1st day, pretty rare for a camp that has so many people!

The activities started and everyone was excitied as they dont know what they were be doing. The mood start to pick up when all the divisions started their cheering and screaming, and protecting their division's flag!

The highest peak came during campfire! The MC is none other than Lawrence Sir, camp chief of RCY Challenge. Everyone had their fun and even the most senior batch of the VI stand up and shake their butts!

As everyone know, the instructors never fail to take out their cameras and start to snap, snap and snap after campfire! Lots of photos were taken, other than taking photos according to batchs, we started to take photos according to poly, secondary schools and even primary schools!

Everything ended on Monday, during the handing over ceremony in Haw Par Hall. The RCY Challenge Flag was hand over to Mr Lawrence Quek, Chairperson of RCY Challenge 2008!

Lanyard for the best division was presented to Bravo! The cadets cried, the instructors cried too, for their hard work and bonding through out the 4 days 3 nights! Lanyards were presented to the cadets who have meet the criteria.

I believe everyone in a way or another have learnt from this camp, be it cadets or instructors. I have learnt alot too, I hope all the instructors enjoyed themselves especially those who was dragged in by me!

RCY Challenge 2007 has made an impact in those who were at the camp! And now it made us look forward for RCY Challenge 2008!

2007-11-16T10:01:00.000+08:00

Do you know how scarly it can get when you know you can spilt your emotions? Should be 很恐怖. As in someone can be joking with you on MSN but he/she is actually crying infront of the computer screen?

I think that is called spilt personality, just how amazing it can get. What if that person has more than 2 personalities? Is he/she gona cry, laugh and having another emotion at the same time?

How do we know which is our real personality?

2007-11-14T22:42:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it just your pride/ego or maybe the position that you are currently at or even the impression that others have on you.

I have never been weak in front of others not even my family. No matter what a bad day I have, I will never show it infront of my friends. I can even joke and laugh like how I used to be.

People around Joan will always think that she is self-motivated, has so much self-esteem and has the courage and ability to do certain things. Do they know when she is down with problems?

People may see Joan as a leader, a capable young lady, at times a motivator. Nobody knows that she can be lost at times, or faces problems in life?

No matter how strong a person is, he/she will still need that special support, he/she would want to be protected too.

2007-11-09T13:22:00.000+08:00

SAW 4!

Caught SAW4 last night, to think that we actually bought Bee movie tickets and got ourselves into SAW4 theater. It was my 1st time sneaking into R21 theater X: It was all masterminded by stephen wong! He even thought of what to say if we are to be caught! LOL

The show has nice plot but you do have to follow through from SAW1 to SAW4 before you understand the whole story. SAW4 has all the gore and blood, what I hate most is the sound of the twisting bone! It was the sound that made me disgusted -.-

Is Jigsaw punishing those people or is he just sick? Watch SAW4 and answer it yourself. Watch the movie not only for the gore and blood but watch it with abit more understanding.

Cherish your life! [:

2007-11-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

Was blog-hopping, read many of my friends' blog and realised that I have missed out alot. Missed out the gatherings, dinners, talk cock sessions and many more.

So many things and gatherings that I wanted to do and attend but so little time left!

I should get back on track and be organised!

Many commitments and gatherings are awaiting for me! [:

2007-10-21T14:46:00.000+08:00

happy haPPY HAPPY!

I am a happy student! Managed to contact Mr Lee Wee Chee again, which is like finally!

He was the man who motivated all of us to love English, he made English lessons interesting and he just have the charisma! Woohoo.

I was a lucky girl to have him as my mentor during the O-level period! I cant bear to throw away those compositions, which many drafts were needed before the final submission and the O-level prelims papers that have many grammatical errors and wrong spelling!

The communication maybe abit slow but it just brings back those memories that was hidden for many years!

2007-10-17T17:32:00.000+08:00

Have been very tired these days.
Dont know what is happening to me.
Nothing seems right too.

2007-10-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Rushed down to the swimming pool when I was activated by my colleague. Ran to the swimming pool and saw the student in pain, did what I was supposed to do as a First Aider. As it was something to do with the heart, have to call alpha immediately.

Heard something which really make me very angry. As a trained First Aider, you should know what to do! You may have known his medical condition, but it was not a joking matter, you should react fast and not let the casualty instruct you!

Reached A&E and the student smiled when he saw me. It is really heartwarming when he smiled, "sayang" him abit and chit-chat before the doctor examined him. Talked to his mother and explained the suitation to her, she is really worried. After handing over the student to his mother, made our way back to NYP.

After this incident, it really made me realised the importance of your life! Treasure it. Dont make your parents worried. Response to the signals that your body is giving out!

I have know the importance of First Aid too! (:

*At certain point, my tears are rolling*

2007-10-05T12:56:00.000+08:00

2007-09-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Drinking session

It has been long since I last touch the alcohol with my group of crazy friends

21st Sept; Yah Fong's Birthday!

Went to Timbre for dinner before making our way to Phoebe bf's pub for a drink on Friday night after dinner. Opened a bottle of Chivas, made Wilson drink lots of it, making him drunk is the main objective of the day. With 4 of us, we finished the whole bottle of Chivas!

After the drink, YF, Jess, Bean, Hannan & Wilson went MOS while PH, San and I made our way home. Wasn't feeling good after drinking so much, have the feeling that I will be down after 1 more glass of alcohol.

22nd Sept; Chalet!

My sec school group was so crazy that we booked a chalet last minute just to have a drinking session! Made our way to Changi Yacht Club Chalet to check in, waited for the rest to join us for supper at Changi Village!

As officer to be, Wilson treated the group with BBQ stingray, omelette and sugarcane juice. After a filling dinner cum supper, went back to the chalet for the "Make Wilson Drunk" game! The guys challenged each other with push-up, it was darm funny when you see how they manipulate each other's mind.

Didnt touch the alcohol at all as I need to drive, I am a good citizen afterall! It was a crazy night, truely enjoyed watching the guys challanged each other. I am sure, more will come as the guys are good at finding reasons to drink!

2007-09-02T15:11:00.000+08:00

Will I have the determination?

2007-08-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Accident with mud?

On 25th Aug 2007, jason, qijun and I were making our way to the ferry terminal, we met with an car accident, an extrem car accident that involved mud! I am so sure that this is the FIRST accident in Singapore that a car got smashed by a pool of mud!

A monster truck filled with mud was behind my M5 and when I stepped on the brake the monster truck jammed brake and guessed what! All the mud in his truck flew towards the front and hit my rear windscreen, the mud flew into the car and hit the 3 of us. I can confirmed that he overload his truck and he was travelling at a pretty fast speed

At that very moment, I saw the mud flew in from the rear mirror, jason had just end his call and was about to keep his phone. jason was at the centre row, he got most of of the mud! I am very gald that everyone is okay and there were no injuries. At that moment I was worried that the other 2 guys will get hurt.

I wasnt as panic as before, I got out of my driver seat and went to settle the matters with the monster truck driver. The whole road was jammed, all the way till the expressway! I was so calm and cool that I was stopping all the moving vehicles when I tried to cross the road

A traffic police was on patrol and he saw the accident, got our details and he went to direct the traffic before any motorbike cyclist got into any accident again. Before my tow truck was here, a very irrating taxi driver cum workshop employee was trying to get the deal and want me to go to his workshop! I really thank for his help but I dont need him!

jason and I followed the tow truck back to the workshop for adminstrative work while qijun made his way to bintan. Before we leave we saw the fire engine, we thought they are off to another accident scene but who knows they are here to wash the mud off the road!

Trying to be optimistic, jason and I were joking in the tow truck, trying to entertain the driver! He was very supportive, he entertained us too and it was his 1st time towing a car covered with mud. We made our grand entrance into the industrial area too!

Took out our bags and they were covered with mud and my white Subaru bear has become brown colour! Settle the papers, washed up and we make our way home to repack our bags for the bintan trip!

Lets keep the adminstrative details aside! Here are the pictures of the accident!

Bintan trip!

It was fun and yet a useful trip and learnt many things from the session. Hope whatever discussed will aid the organisation in future.

2007-08-24T09:30:00.000+08:00

I am really proud of you. You have been very strong. We will always be here for you, to give you any form of support! [:

2007-08-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

Monday Blues

Well, I didnt have any today. All thanks to the office 2 entertainers, Shaun Tang and Alvin Phua! I have been laughing since the point they step into our office and never ending!

They entertain well, they make everyone in the room laughed till stomach pain! Way to go man, they can be really good cure for monday blues!

2007-07-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

Everything has been pretty rush, cant seems to be able to catch hold of Time, he has left me behind trying to catch up with him. He has taught me that no one gona stop and wait for me, the Earth is still revolving around the Sun when I have decided to stop.

Everything happend for a reason, if the outcome was not what you have expected it to be, it means that you have not done enough, so work on to get what you want. Nothing comes free in this world.

If your plan fails you along the way, pick yourself up! You are the planner yet you are the participant in life, you choose how you want it to be, if your journey is as rough as a sandpaper, try different means to make it as smooth as baby skin. As much as I know, my plan is not very smooth now, improving along the way.

Don't compare yourself with others, the only one you should compare with and win is only YOURSELF, thus reflection is a good strategy to start off with if not someone who knows you well will help too. *reflecting*

I am gald of what I have now, much better than before. I am doing what I like and treasuring what I have and working hard for what I want. Everything seems to be in control! Is yours in control too?

2007-07-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

Satisfaction

A class of 25 students came to me with regards to NYAA
Bring them thru the NYAA journey, and answered all their questions with regards to NYAA
When I saw all of them filling in the forms with a smile on their faces, I can feel the sense of satisfaction in me.

I have long lost the sense of satisfaction, but my students bring them back today!
I may not be able to see them thru their whole NYAA journey but I will build a strong foundation for them and really hope they can get their Gold award after 18 months!

I am really proud of my NYAA kids, especially my EXCO! Lets press on!

2007-06-25T21:16:00.000+08:00

I feel quite sad when I realised that people didnt bother about the day, just because they assumed?

2007-06-01T22:38:00.001+08:00

How I spend my public holiday?

As I was pretty lazy, I told the entry from bean's blog!

Crazy Crazy Night
Is it just me, or is it the group that promotes crazy nights out. Somehow it seems to hint that I'm the devil's advocate, or so my friends tend to put it. Joan's received the keys to her new shiny Mazda 5 last week. Last night, we went for more than just a spin. We went for... Supper. Super yummy mee sua at Kembangan.

After supper, we went for a ride along Geylang, looking at err... Night life. Okay, prostitutes to be honest. All we saw were old and ugly ones. From Geylang, we went to Changi - to look at transvestites. You must be thinking what the hell is wrong with us, from prostitutes to ah guas. Seems that not many of them were around on a Wednesday night, so we didn't exactly get to see the drop-dead gorgeous ones that would put many women to shame.

OCH was a stone's throw away from Changi Village, so after some discussion we drove up without the slightest clue that we would actually tour the compound at night - with me as the tour guide, no less! On our first attempt to enter the compound with a Malay family, Joan and Wei Ying were too brave to proceed. It seems that my group didn't feel comfortable with the family. I finally managed to get Ling Yang and Wilson to follow the group but we didn't go beyond the wards on the 3rd Level.

We headed back to the car, and noticed a group of youngsters who seemed keen to explore the compound. They had a torch but not much guts, so Bean swiftly rose to the challenge of taking them on a tour around OCH! Joan and Wei Ying finally joined us, so our group of 10 explored the place. There wasn't much to see since it was so dark, so we went from level to level before climbing up the ladder to the roof access. The view was still as good, even at night.

It would have been a perfect setting for a haunting, if our group wasn't that big. Mei Yi was the only girl (and more of a man than the others) in the other group that we had invited to join our tour. She's gutsy, period. Much of OCH was wet due to rain, and the roof was quite flooded, which made climbing down kinda dangerous. Fortunately there were no mishaps - for us at least.

Apparently a joker fell into the elevator shaft and injured his leg. I honestly have no idea how someone could have done such an intelligent action - if he tore down the elevator door, I guess that he asked for it?

The SCDF had extracted the fallen guy when we descended down the flight of stairs to the ground level. Since OCH was state property, the police had to be called in following an injury in the compound. We didn't want to be involved, so we hastily took a group picture before leaving the place.

Our next venue will be Lim Chu Kang Cemetery!

2007-05-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

MIA

Have been MIA-ing for a long time from blogspot, as I am a white collar worker now, dont have much things to update either.I am now blogging in my office while waiting for my dad to come and fetch me!

Started work since 2nd May and I will be on a year contract as I didnt manage to get into any uni this year thus will try again next year with additional credits.

The working environment here is good as I know all of them before I started work. I am doing what I know and what I like too!

Everything has been good for me, having more free time on weekends to help my parents, go out supper-ing/ chilling with my friends or just simply spend my day at home! [:

2007-05-15T19:08:00.000+08:00

It rained heavily this morning. The first thing that strike me was, is he crying for you?
It stopped just at the right time.

2007-05-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

You have been fighting for all these while, a real fighter to all of us.

I believe you are watching over all of us from the heaven now.

We will always remember you in our hearts.

2007-04-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

Happending

Went HQ to help the kids packed the First Aid supply as we will be catching Meet the Robinson after our hardwork. Throughout the 45 minutes MRT journey, I bet there are more than 10 people who stare at me, the feeling is weird

Helped to pack the RC room, it was super messy with everything "flying" around, although it can be tiring but it was fun with the kids' company! As they like to do crazy things while working!

Watched Meet the Robinson with jin liu, cass, esther, derek and stephen at Great World, the show was good with great storyline, love what the characters said in the movie.

Something learnt after the movie: everything happens for a reason, there is no going back. Failure is the 1st step towards success, so keep moving forward! Never look back!

Went for some window shopping and coffee at TCC and esther did and said something stupid again!

Meet up with my hangout gang at bedok! They made me waited for like 1 hour plus! Had supper at Bedok 85, we talked super loud as it runs in our genes and all of us dont look decent either with joan's red hair! After round 1 at bedok we had round 2 at prata house!

At 4.30am they decided to come my house to finish the Bombay Sapphire, and some were pretty drunk after the Grey Goose and I bet they don't know what they were doing! Stayed till 8.30am before the drivers tried to get sober and send all of them home!

Just loved hanging out with the sec sch gang, as what bean mentioned, years ago we were sabo-ing each other during birthdays, and here today driving out for supper and who knows years later we will be attending each other's wedding and may be even bring our kids out for supper!

Everything happens for a reason!

2007-04-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

My hair is red again!

Well, intend to get a new phone but it will eat up my 1 month pay. It is something worth considering as I have been eyeing for a PDA for quite some time.

Realised I have been missing out alot, and now everything should be back to normal. Outings with poly friends, supper and cooking with my sec sch hangout gang and many others lining up!

Like what bean say, we shall share our love although it sounded quite gay when he is telling everyone. LOL

2007-04-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

Reflect

Refresh

Resolve

Relate

Reinvent

Reduce

Reassess

Redeploy

Relax

Rebel

These 10 R can be pretty useful [:

You guys bite me wont die? Have to suck my blood through a layer of oil, I bet you guys will die of obesity.

Found many blue-blacks on my hands and legs, when I didnt fall or do anything that will cause injuries. Maybe it has something to do with my low iron level? The blue-blacks dont seems to be dissaperaing. X:

2007-04-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

I believe that ah gong and ah ma want all these to happend. They should be proud that their ah girl has grown up, and able to handle them well.

They have gave me something and took away something from me. As what yu ching will say, all these transactions are fair!

P.S: ah gong and ah ma are already not around for many years [:

2007-04-23T21:44:00.000+08:00

Today is THE day.

HE gave me something and took something away from me.

I believe it will take some time [:

2007-04-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

today was the last unit training before exams!
we did 100 plus of squats and sunshine.
my legs and hands are completely numb after training.
they are the punishments for the kids but can see that the kids are bonded after all the squads and sunshine.

hopefully after exams they will be as bonded as today!

2007-04-17T17:47:00.000+08:00

Ms Ow . Crazy

The notorious class gave me a title today
"The fiercest relief teacher"
Told my fellow colleagues and they commented that I should be proud of that title as not many relief teachers can control that notorious class.

My colleagues(relief teachers) faced many problems with the kids and was unable to control them, yet I am crowned "The fiercest relief teacher". It is an achievement that I am proud of.

Lets backtrack to Saturday (14.04.2007)
Had our "drinking" session @ my hse, as usual all of us get high but this time round Policeman visited us as we were too noisy.

The video below will explained everything!

As usual, the first to be down was our dear Say Ee, but he still stay strong trying to make dessert for us! Ling Yang was an a** wanting to make all of us drunk just like him. Shawn was our rare guest, he just booked out and he is here with us, dont play play he is in OCS now.

We are gona have drinking session once every two months but we gona have eating session soon, and my hse will be our kitchen!

2007-04-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

Have been slacking at home for the past few days. With free time, it give me chance to think. Think about many things, many that have been bothering me.

Was blog-hopping and I come across my poly classmate's blog, he is pretty cool and many of his phrases are very real, and he wrote everything himself.

为了他一个不知何时会揭穿的谎言，你选择爱。
为了你这一个不知何时会破碎的梦，我选择等。

为了掩饰我的自私，我显得更自私。一句又一句的谎言，一段又一段的爱情。

若爱，甜言蜜语都代表了一句＂我爱你＂
若不爱，千言万语也不如一句＂再见＂

或许你现在感受不到我的细心，但我相信总有一天你会看见我的執著。

音乐的节奏有快慢，爱情的节奏有＂快乐＂与＂浪漫（慢）＂

有人为了你而开始写日记，记载了和你做过的一切。但我为了你烧掉了日记，因为我相信和你在一起之后，我不再需要理会过去做过的一切。

默默的对你好，你说我不好。我对你说我的好，你说你知道。但你离开我的那天，你却说了一句＂这对彼此都好。＂你从未问过我要的是什么。如果有一天，你问了我。我的答案将是＂我只希望你能过的好。＂

有件事情你一直都不知道。你一直要求我用左手牵着你。因为你觉得这样比较贴心，但我却只用右手，因为我想更亲近你的心。

单方面的叫做爱情，双方面的我称它为奇迹。

自私的爱情是霸占与占有。
无私的爱情是专署与拥有。

星光无法给你足够的光与温暖，但他却能为你导航。

我无法让你相信，但我只希望能在你有疑惑时，给你一丝的安慰。

谎言能骗来一段爱情，当真诚能为序一段感情。既然选择了离开又何必留下任何记忆？

I feel real when reading these phrases, and here is one phrase that I am trying to achieve:

不再有心痛的感觉时，那就证明我已不再...

2007-04-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

500th post

This is my 500th post, have been reading the past 499 posts. Many things changed which includes my language, I used to put all the 'sia, lah" after every sentence.

Came across an entry, which is a "Get to know Yourself" test, here is the 2005 results:

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Here is the 2007 result:

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Some of the outcomes are pretty similar for the past 2 years and most of them are pretty true. [:

The distance from our mind to our heart is very short, but often we do things differently from what we feel and think. Rationally, our brain tells us the right or theorically correct things, but often we did the opposite because our hearts says so. Even if the distance between our heart and brain is sooo close, things/facts from our brain dont often get into our heart. they dun reach or they take years to reach.

These few days, both my heart and mind are having block-nose, unable to think and feel.

I am hoping for the better, and maybe the outcome that I had always dream of.

2007-04-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

The kids are really cute! The way they talk, their action and their smile are just so sweet.

"I dont want the chairman to get scolding!" that is how the sec1 do to protect their new chairman.

"Ms Ow, I want to be IC next week" that is how the sec 2 show their initiative

My days with them are limited.

It went well today, lets wait for their reply in 1 to 2 weeks time!

My heart just sank when i heard abt it, it was just 1 year ago such things happend and now another struggling for his life.

2007-04-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

Isn't it cool that I have been motivating others about how great life can be but I am not motivated.

But I have told myself everything before I tell them, Maybe is because of my current suitation that doesnt allow me to see it at the other angles?

I may look okay on the outside, but actually I am not.

2007-04-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

simple actions

My tuition kid gave me a drawing, she drew pigs for me and what touches me is that the pigs were drawn in the way I taught her. The drawing just brighten up my moody day [:

I have relief-ed WGS 3N1 each time I am back, there is 1 student who managed to get my msn and he started MSN-ing with me and asked why I wasnt back today as many of their teachers were not in school. Talking on MSN as a teacher is pretty different, have to talk sense.

Everything is just so not right

2007-04-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

WRCD

Have been helping out WRCD since 2004, this year has been the wettest WRCD where most of us were running in the rain trying to get things done.

In the early part of the day, we were burning under the hot sun for parade rehearsals and setting up of the entire stadium for the celebration and when the actual event was to start, it started drizzling and soon it was raining like cats and dogs.

We have to shelter the kids up the bus as not all of them bought umbrella, we got a super huge umbrella from the ice-cream uncle across the street, it was nice of him to lend us the umbrella.

When we sheltered the kids, we were drenched. When the judges was judging the banner, we were drenched; We were drenched while taking the banners down too. Some of us even ran on the tracks without an umbrella as it seems unless by then.

Many of the instructors were shivering as they have no time to change into dry clothes before debrief, many of us were wet after changing.

It was great seeing many of our batchmates were back for WRCD, for your information WRCD 2004 was our batch first event! It just feel so warm when we gave each other hug in our drenched attire, it is better than any jacket!

Went to the nearby resturant for dinner, they bought a birthday cake for me! I was touched at that moment and still am till now! Love them all [:

I hope that all the helpers for WRCD have not fall sick after yesterday's event!

2007-04-07T04:49:00.000+08:00

Chapter 2.0

Have offically entered my chapter 2.0 of my life on 6th April 2007. Many thanks to those who wished me, there are too many to be named but maybe I shall named a few funny and meaningful ones.

Yvonne Eng smsed me in the midnight of 5th April, thinking that my bday falls on 5th April! Dear girl, you are the 1st one to wished me this year!

Sarah Ee aka er zi, she called me from aust to wish me, gald to know that she is doing fine in aust, will write her a letter soon which I owned her for many weeks!

Judee Poh, she is also studying at aust now, received her sms! I will be waiting for my presents!

Didnt have any programme for the day except mahjong! Went Xiang Xiang princess hse for a game of mahjong before heading down to prata house, which they sang bday song so loudly with prata as my cake! -_-"

As we are all crazy about mahjong, they shifted the battle ground to my hse and that is the reason why I am still awake at this moment when WRCD is just a few hours away!

Thanks for all the wishes! and Thanks for remembering the important day [:

With a new chapter, I have many things to accomplished, many to worry about and many many many more. will update about them in due date!

2007-04-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

the small small kids

Relief teach today, the kids were pretty good especially those that I took before, they already know my style. Dont mess with Ms Ow!

The kids are pretty cute when they know I graduated from WGS, they asked lots of qns and pretty caring too.

Being a teacher can be stressful, but the results are great!

2007-04-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

NYAA Talk

As the ex-president of the NYP NYAA Students' Club, I was invitied to give NYAA talk to SCL and SIDM freshies. Well, I have been talking almost the same things throughout the 2 presentations, maybe just bringing the pointers to the freshies differently.

After today, I believe I am good at talking nonsense.

Entering chapter 2.0 in 3 days time [:

2007-03-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

kids

After so long I am back to where I started, putting them back into place is nothing hard for me. I just want to see them back into shape like how it was years ago, the feeling is just so right.

2007-03-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

对面的女孩看过来

Was watching Ren Ci Charity Show and the song; 对面的女孩看过来 was sang by a Hong Kong celebrity, this song brought back lots of memory of my upper secondary life.

Our batch was pretty stress since secondary Three as we were the first batch taking the O-level examinations, yet life has been fun and exciting and everyday was filled with laughter and nice smelling sweat [:

Our class joined a Chinese song singing competition, but our group not only has Chinese students but also 1 talented Malay student! We sang 对面的女孩看过来, if you are smart, you will be able to guess that the 女孩 in the song is ME!

I am not a pretty 女孩 in this song but a food-loving 女孩. I am not interested in the guy but only the food! The whole "MTV" was so hilarious that the whole school laughed till they dropped, not only that part of the song was sang by the Malay student and the song was played with only guitar! We got 1st runner up in this competition, it is not the prize we enjoyed but the process!

We have graduated 6 years ago from Woodgrove Secondary School (WGS), but we still have a sense of belonging when we returned back to WGS, be it as relief teacher, alumni, or CCA instructor, the feeling will never changed.

Every corner of WGS has the memories of our happiness, sadness, all the feelings we went through for the 4 years. All these will always be in our heart.

Once a Woodgrover, Always a Woodgrover!
Grow in Grace and Dignity!

2007-03-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

When I was young...

Received my graduation letter, have officially graduated from Nanyang Polytechnic, it was a mixture of different feelings, I have always dislike these kind of mixture.

Through the MSN chat last night, I realised I have many things that I want to do but has yet to accomplish. Jason took the safe path, so what path am I going to take? Especially my next step in life!

When I was young, I want to be a lawyer, teacher and lastly to work in the world-class hotel. I want to lead an above-average yet simple life, I believe that is what everyone wants but what have I done to be a step closer to them?

The next step after diploma is a tough one, when everything is not within my control now. It will be great if I got accepted into the local uni, but what am I going to do if I am not? Pursue a degree with a private uni?

It will be a good alternative and maybe I can pursue a part-time degree after my first degree. Working and studying at the same time is not going to be easy but I want to take a step closer.

Money is not an issue, it is the time that I am concern about. Hitting 20 soon and not gona have much time left before I make it big.

I perfer being young, without worries and our concern is where to go and what to play with. With laughters and joy filling up everywhere we go.

Where are you gona take me to next?

2007-03-19T14:56:00.000+08:00

Offically Graduated

Yup, I have offically graduated from NYP since our results were out last night. They were not up to what I have expected, my HEART just dropped for that second when I view my result. This is the first time I am so dissapointed in my result, but on the bright side my GPA increased for 0.1 even though I didnt get an A as expected.

Hopefully I can get into a local uni through the Non-Academic Achievements path, if not I will have to apply for private uni which will start next year.

Msg from NYP Exams Office:
Congrats for having met all requirements for graduation. Academic transcript and conferment letter will be sent to you soon

2007-03-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

Entering chapter 2.0

Since my 20th Birthday is just 25 days away, I shall listed down what I want here (updated):

1. Adidas t-shirt; size XL
2. Havaianas Slippers (Trekkering Mas); Size 11
3. Red/Orange Adidas watch [:
4. Crumpler Bag [:

2007-03-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

to my dear readers ( if there is any)

Sorry for MIA-ing for so long as I was preparing for my last exams in NYP! Yup, I have un-offically graduated from NYP on 2nd March 2007. The 3 years in NYP has passed pretty fast, I believe many will agree with me [:

Although I have un-offically graduated from NYP, I am still pretty involved with the activities such as SBM LTC (straight after my exams) and more activities are coming their way.

Went back WGS as a relief teacher, the kids are pretty naughty and talkative in the NA class. What makes me sad is that they thought I was 25 years old, when I told them I was their senior from WGS. It was an exciting day!

Had my wisdom tooth extracted out, as it was pretty deep, the doctor used lots of force to get it out and mind you the doc is a female! After 2 days, my left cheek is still swollen! The 1st hour after the ops, I cant even talk x:

After so much, I believe many of you would have gotta much info of my life for the past one month! Stay tune [:

Since my 20th Birthday is just 28 days away, I shall listed down what I want here:
1. Adidas t-shirt; size XL
2. Havaianas Slippers (Trekkering Mas); Size 11
3. Let me think [:

2007-02-17T14:44:00.000+08:00

Lets drink again!

Went back WGS for CNY celebration! Many ex-students were back for that meaningful celebration. Walked around the school and realised many things has become more beautiful, WGS has a better environment for studying now! Will be back to WGS pretty often now!

Went for lunch at pizza hut, we were there from lunch time till dinner time. Talking serious stuff and crapping was our favourite activities! Decided to go Robin's house for some games and drinks!

As usual, we had our game of dice. In total we drank near 2.5L of hard liquor, it was fun trying to make each other drank! We had 5 survivors left after 3 players being knocked out of the game! The 5 survivors are: Judee, Nevin, Ling Yang (nearly out), Robin and ME!

Pictures speak a thousands word.

Here are what my dear friends do and say when they are high!

I bet we gona have another session pretty soon! [:

2007-02-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

Last day together!

Our class photo!

We started as the pioneer batch of the CRM option and we ended everything being the most noisy class the lecturers have ever seen [: Everyone has been pretty emo in their blogs, so is da jie's turn now!

3 years ago, I started my poly journey with BM0411! Although we were into different group of friends, different CCAs, we still go for our long lunch breaks together, trying to sleep in the small discussion room at the library and do many crazy things!

Amy, Carrie and I love to gossipe! There was once when we were gossiping in the class and Amy hit her head against the wall while laughing her ass off, in the end the class laughed their ass off too!

Year 1 was the year, I took up 7 ccas! Trying out everything and in the end settled for SBM club and NYAA! I was pretty active during year 1, in the end my results failed on me ]:

Choose CRM as my specialisation, about 8 of us were in the same class! Didnt know who were my classmates during my 1st day of class as I was involved in the orientation! I still can clearly remember Chang Da reaching out his hand in welcoming all the OGLs back to class as he was the class rep!

As usual formed our gang, and me being the da jie! BM0431 was the most noisy class during lectures, be it giving the right/wrong answers or talking loudly across the lecture hall! We never failed to let everyone knows our presence and we make sure the lecturers know our name!

We maybe the most playful bunch you can find but we do study hard too, we "camped" in our school library to study for exams! Making notes and doing past year papers has been a joy with all the brothers around, I even brought my pillow to the library and they never fail to "rob" it away! We travelled overseas together too! Been on immersion programme to HK, bonded well with all the craps and "falling in" [:

With all the fun we had in the class, we had fun too during TEP! Paying school fees yet we have to work for the school! Had lots of movies and games everyday with many coffee breaks! Too be frank, I am the one who load all the videos into the shared folders with many others who contributed.

Organised many school events and I was pretty famous among SBM lecturers and SAOs! Skipped many lessons offically too and all the reasons were the same! My brothers were say the same to all lecturers: "Joan involved in xxx event, got excuse letter!" Year 2 was when I represented NYAA for Switzerland exchange programme!

Year 3 was the busiest yet shortest semster, had tonnes of projects and conflicts started to fire off! Shall not talk about the conflicts! It was our 1st time having at least 6 presentations in 4 working days! Nothing can beat our class with more than half the class not sleeping just to complete the projects! Something happend to our classmate, and since then we started praying for her to recover fast and hoping she can graduate with us soon.

Although Year 3 is the busiest and shortest semster but it was a semster that Joan didnt fail any ICA! It is worth celebrating for, even Carrie commented me [:

With here I end my 3 years of exciting moments in NYP, it maybe a small campus but we had lots of colourful and exciting lives in here. It not only teaches me the theories from textbooks, it brings many people into my life, be it bad or good one. NYP gives me lots of opportunities to do well [:

Will delicate a post specially to my brothers after our "camping" in the library!

2007-02-11T16:49:00.000+08:00

Judee's Farewell BBQ

As Judee (secondary sch friend) will be leaving for Austraila for her studies pretty soon, we had a farewell BBQ for her at the chalet. The usual stuff for chalet/BBQ but the fun starts when the guys saw the Bacardi on the table!

They started playing the dice game, and the punishment is Bacardi shot, everything gets heated up and everyone was high! Our poor Wilson lost the game 7 times in a row, he seh den dunnoe what to say!

Bacardi runs out, I sponsered vodka for round 2! Most of them were seh after a few rounds, dices keep falling off the cups, we know Wilson is really seh when he said he want 6 - 10 when the biggest digit on the dice is only 6?

After round 2, Wilson totally cant walk straight, everyone's face was red and eyes were blood-shot! Wilson and Robin vomitted! Robin vomitted not only once but thrice with blood seen in one of it x:

After so long, this gathering was the BEST! People geeting seh, vulgarities everywhere, everyone is high and as usally we got complained.

Looking forward for next gathering! [:

2007-02-01T01:25:00.001+08:00

2007-02-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

m.god

We have stuck with each other from FDIC 2001, SWOC 2003, VIC 2004 to the many many camps we have been through together, 6 years in total and all these 6 years were filled with laughters and tears.

Sarah is the monkey god, you will never fail seeing her jumping around at all events. Her cheerfulness and enthusiasm will never fail to make everyone around her smile! Sarah's determination is something that everyone admires, she will never fail to cross all the obstacles infront of her.

Sarah is our monkey god, Weishan's buttercup and my erzi. She loves to draw when she can't climb the trees, she loves to eat bananas, she is a great swimmer and everyone loves her [:

Sarah will be terrorising the kola bears in aust, taking over all the trees! She will be deeply missed by all of us here in SG!

I will keep you in my prayer, laopa love you [:

2007-01-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

Holiday!

Will be joining my parents to go China after my birthday, it has been long since I went on a holiday with my parents, the last trip was like in 2004?

I always look forward to my parents going on a holiday, not because we can get to be either home alone with no government or get to enjoy ourselves to the fullest when we are on holiday, but because I know that my parents will be able to get the rest they deserve after working so hard.

I am able to realise many of my dreams because of them, their trust, their love has enable me to do what many others cant. I really wish that a day will come, when they go on holiday with all their expenses on me, as their wish is to retire and travel around [:

2007-01-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

movie alone [:

had some time between my 2 tuition thus I decided to watch Deathnote 2, The Last Name. The movie has nice plot and both the lead actors are so smart to have predicate what will happend and the reasons of them happending.

If I am not wrong, this is the 1st movie I watched alone. The feeling is different and I feel good watching it alone. (i am not a loner!)

I believe it is a good treat from myself [:

2007-01-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

Dont irritate joan ow

Havent been in pretty good mood these days, most likely due to the lack of sleep X:

Went Indochine to celebrate Kang An's 21st birthday, I was late due to unforesee circumstance which affected me very badly. Once I reached there, they were complaining abt the waitress who showed them black face throughout their stay in the restaurant.

Since my mood was bad and her face is black, I decided to make her face blacker! I asked her over, didnt even look at her face, placed my order for lychee martini, asked for my ice water. I told her to check my friend's order too as they took freaking 20 minutes! My tone was very very unfriendly!

They served my drinks fast! Since then, that waitress dont dare to serve us but her colleague check our table constantly for orders! It was her unlucky day, especially to have met a group of CRM students and with a bad mood joan ow!

2007-01-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

interview clinic

Went for a mock-up interview that is conducted by the SBM lecturers, they interviewed us and gave us comments both on our resume and the interview.

Their comments for me were:
1. I tend to blush when I am nervous (can't be help)
2. Need to smile more
3. Should put some plain make-up in order to stand out
4. Dont rush thru when answering questions
5. Just hightlight some points that make me important and not all the +ve points
6. Resume was very informative but still have rooms for improvements

There are some more comments that have slipped of my mind. I was very glad that Ms Woot was kind enough to go through my resume with me to help me improve on it, and she will be helping me to look through my resume before I graduate! She even thought of recommending jobs for me in his friends' company.

There was a phrase she told me that make me smile widely: "You will definitely be an asset to the company you are working for"

2007-01-05T13:32:00.000+08:00

dumbdumb

Watched night at the musuem yesterday, it was a funny movie but it does carry some meaning with it, it is worth the money [:

Had 2 new tuition assignments which means more allowance for me, they are all young kids. Will be starting 1 of the assignments today at 3pm. Hopefully the kids will be good [:

Finally sumbitted my application for SMU, need to gather the revalent documents soon. Which means my semster is gona end soon, it has been a pretty fast semster, in another 5 weeks time, will be sitting for my last exams in NYP.

Shall get moving with all the projects x:

2007-01-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

Resolutions for 2007

A new year, a new beginning thus a time for us to make realistic resolutions [:

#1. Graduate with a diploma, and get into uni.
I would want to continue my studies in uni, as diploma get me nowhere in Singapore with the current standard of living

#2. Lose weight
Everyone has been asking me to lose weight and actions were taken since October 2006, have been losing and hopefully I can reach my target weight by the end of 2007 [:

#3. Save $80/month.
This means splurging less on good food and transportation e.g cab

This should be all of the realistic resolutions that I can think of now. I've got one more, but shall keep it to myself! [:

2007-01-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

exciting countdown!

Went Chijmes for dinner before heading down to Suntec area for countdown! There were thousands and thousands of people! We managed to climb up the side staircase of Marina Mandarin as the hotel was on accessible for hotel guests only!

We climbed all the way up to the 19th storey, due to my physical ability I was the slowest climber, it was super tiring and we were rushing against time to catch the fireworks!

Since there were some time left before 0000hrs, Jason and I decided to walk around the 19th storey to cool ourselves down, and we realised that the 20th storey's window were empty! By luck, all thanks to those hotel guests, we took the lift and got ourselves landed on the 21st storey! Tried to call the rest up, but all the networks were down.

As the countdown begin, when everyone shouted '1'. The sky was filled with beautiful fireworks! They looked great in the dark sky with many colours and pattern. It was our first time enjoying the firework in comfort and we were able to catch the entire fireworks with no one blocking!

The last 10 secs of the firework display was great, there wasnt any sec that the sky was dark, everyone was admiring the firework, at the same time welcoming 2007! We shall booked a room at the nearby hotel next year so that we can enjoy the fireworks in comfort [:

Walked back HQ to collect Kenny, Victor (van bf) and Wilson's car, the walk back was funny, there were many people and cars werent able to move at all, the traffic police dont even bother. Went thomas prata for supper, many funny things happened there, after supper, Joshua, David, Kenny, Wilson, Max, Jason and I made our way to Denise's house.

Played many rounds of taidi and it was till ard 6 plus when most of them were asleep that Jason and I introduced the brain twister poker game to David and Denise to test their intelligence. Shall not mention who has is clever x:

Woke the rest up, had breakfast and home sweet home [:

*the fireworks were beautiful*

2006-12-31T17:22:00.000+08:00

byee 2006!

we will be saying bye to 2006 and hi to 2007 in another 6+ hours.

many things happened in 2006, be it happy or sad, but they are part of my 19 years of memory. Many thanks to those who were by my side when I am down and many cheers to those whom I have worked with in 2006.

At the end of the year, it is a good time for reflection for us to set goals for the new year. I have yet started to reflect but will do so soon so that my 2007 will be another exciting year.

See you guys in 2007 [:

2006-12-31T12:09:00.000+08:00

VI retreat [:

a rare scene where many batches of VI siting together bbq-ing, although there isnt much interaction among batches but it was really very nice to see the not-so-young VI siting down together with the young VI.

Many of my batch mates were there too! We can be easily recongised with our adidas batch tshirts, or with us jumping around. Royce and Fiona Koe were there too, rare visit for the campsite.

We were chit-chatting at the lounge, actually more of suan-ing each other, like what Yuhui mentioned, we really missed those time where we sit together suan-ing each other at the same time trying hard to meet the deadline for sumbiting our VIC proposal.

Most of us didnt sleep, especially those die-hard fans of DOTA, they were gaming through-out the night in the north room, while the juniors were playing mahjong or card games in the west room. It was unbelievable that I can actually sleep in the north room with many "wake-up call", they were so high that they can scream and shout while gaming!

Watched high school musical with many others in the west room after their DOTA! The west room is just like a movie cinema with free seating. Step-up was after high school musical, I practically slept through the movie as I have watched it before.

Celebrated QiuYu 19th birthday, so not fair! I am hiting my 20th birthday when he just hit his 19th! Cabbed home with jason, esther and stella. Had my beauty sleep which make me wide awake now [:

2006-12-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

updates

qihui 19th bday!

qihui's birthday was on the 19th dec, jason, yvonne eng and I decided to have a simple dinner with her at compass point! Jason and qihui made me waited for like 2 hour plus! for more details please read their blog! ]:

I bought her dinner while jason and yvonne bought her a skirt! Actually at 1st when jason, qihui and I were waiting for yvonne to end her tuition we passed by OP and she saw the brown 'skirt' at first she thought it was a shorts that why she was interested in it!

Jason came out with the idea to buy it as a bday present for her, we got her to try it on after our dinner. It was a shorts cum skirt! We hope she will wear it when we come out next time, qihui looks great in it [:

ULP gathering @ sentosa

We had ULP gathering on 23rd dec @ sentosa, although it has been raining cats and dogs for the past few days but the weather was noce to us on that day. There was sun although it drizzle at certain part of the gathering. We played captain ball, monkey and volleyball!

We took shelter under the tentage when it drizzle and we started chit-chating, soon we realised Qijun was digging the sand, he was so into it that he totally us. We videoed down his whole process and we just cant stopped laughing!

Since we are near the sea, it means that we have to be wet! Thus we started throwing ppl down the sea! I managed to fireman lift Qijun but as he moved too much, I have to put him down before I reached the water. Next was Tammy and Daphne, returned back to Qijun with the help from the guys, finally he is wet. Our next target was Pohboon, he was a difficult target. We had to pin him down before we can throw him into the water!

Went for lunch @ harbour front hawker before heading to mt faber safra. Met huda and the rest @ newton for dinner before we headed down to cosy bay @ kallang. It was a nice place and it has beautiful scenery! [:

xmas eve @ my place

Weishan decided to organise a xmas gathering @ my place on xmas eve, many came around 13 of them, shall not named them as there are too many of them but I believed they had a great time there!

The best time was the gift exchange! By luck Weishan and I, jf and yuhui exchanged our gift respectively. It was great that we were able to buy gifts that are worth $5 yet they look nice and useable! Qijun and Qiuyu had the best gift of all! x: it is only known within the 14 of us and the 4 side of walls

Most of them slept in my room, and Qijun was shivering as the room was too cold! the 3 girls found their comfortable spot on my living room sofa! I am the ONLY one who didnt sleep!

This is the most exciting and funny xmas eve I had in my 19 years of life! I nearly die of laughing [:

2006-12-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

photos.videos of vip0707 campfire

Renjie as Aaron Kwok

QiuYu as Jay and Jason as Fen Yu Qing!

Poh Boon as Emil Chow

Ambrose as William Hung teaching a new song!

shan and sarah are crazy!

It was a great day for gathering for all the batchs! [:

2006-12-18T16:03:00.000+08:00

updates

Have been pretty busy lately due to presentations and projects. To be frank I have forgotten about most of the things that happened all because of my short term memory!

Went to AMKSS to fetch Wei Shan as she is having her friendly there, drove to campsite for VIP 0707 campfire after she is done with her match. Stephen and Lionel were commenting through-out the second half of the match!

It was raining heavily and I missed the turn towards campsite! Took a big round before we reached Bedok! Drove the Woodlands and Yishun people home and we nearly got into an accident, all because of Daniel! He gave unclear instructions!

Went to WGS to work in the bookshop today! The boss was so happy to see me! I was practically slacking from 10am to 3pm! I will be working at WGS till my school starts in 3 weeks time!

*hopefully it was just a my imagination!*

2006-12-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

Camp.Unity

8th to 10th Dec was Red Cross first even Camp Unity, I not there most of the time due to my TP!

I am at the evac station, the game we played are quite gross! We had disgusting punishment too, the loser team will have to drink a cup of bitter gourd juice! The Bravo instructors and the evac instructors drank the remaining bitter gourd juice at the last stataion too, the taste sucks and we know how the rest felt when they have to drink it! I nearly pucked! X:

What is exciting will be me being Alllllvin's assistant when he had to helped Jason Gan changed his dressing! The whole process is so long and painful for Jason!

As Alllllvin cut Jason's nail, he was shivering. I can imagine the pain! But Jason took it well, he didnt cry! We can even joke at times!

After cutting the nail!

his BIG thumb!

He has become very handicapped after he injured his right thumb, mind you he is a right-hander. His nail should be able to grow back in 2 to 3 weeks time and he should not be so handicapped after a few days!

2006-12-10T03:32:00.000+08:00

Woohoo.

I have PASSED my DRIVING on 9th Dec 2006 with 12 demerit points! Many of my first time happends today!

First time I lent car from my uncle!
He just agree to lend me his Toyota Corolla without asking much questions!

Jason Gan was my first passenger!
He laughed his lungs out when we sat in the car, he just cant stop laughing!
I forget to put on my seat belt while driving on expressway and he has to help me!
We went the wrong way while taking the shortcut to Yishun!
He tried to pull my car when I nearly hit the other car while parking!
He always remind me to switch off headlights when we park the car!
and many more!

Drove up the expressway (TPE/PIE)
Btw I just passed less than 12 hours and I am up the expressway!
I changed lane like nobody business!

Went bliss for a drink with me as the driver!

Drove at the speed of 90km/hr legally!

Went to pump petrol at the Shell station
$20 of petrol is alot, more than enough for you to drive to the other end of Singapore!

Wanna know how Jason Gan feel being my first passenger? Do read his blog! (provided he lazy pig is not that lazy!)

2006-12-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

un.lucky

Decided not to go for International Business turtorial that starts at 8am today. Wei Hao called me at 7.45am but I decided not to answer, Carrie smsed me and I decided not to reply till I wake up at 8.30am!

It was till I replied Carrie at 8.40am, before I knew someone jumped onto the MRT track at Yishun thus all train services have been stopped and no one is at the class yet! I took my usual timing for preparation, step in the class at 9.40am when it is ending at 10am.

When I stepped in the class, my friends started to help me explain! One of them even say that I was from Red Cross thus I helped in the accident! I nearly fainted lah! The tutor thought that I was late due to the delay of train services thus she marked me PRESENT!

It was a un.lucky day for many of us!

2006-12-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

warmth

my heart just feel warm as I read the sms. It make me realise that he has grown up and will not let me down [:

2006-12-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

REJECTED ]:

Nope, i didnt get rejected by guys but I got rejected by the nurses at the NYP blood donation drive ]:

TWO years ago, I was rejected as my iron level was low and TWO years later I was reject AGAIN due to my iron level, it was only 11.2mg and an average of 12mg is needed for a normal people to donate. As it was my second time got rejected due to iron level, the doctor gave me 1 month supply of iron tablet, hope that my iron level will increase after 1 month.

IF it doesnt increase, I will have to go for a full body check-up. Iron level continue to be low means got problem with my blood! Got chance of getting some blood illness. WTH! It totally freak my mum out when I told her that.

SATURDAY

Went down campsite after my lesson, accompanied Alllllvin and he handed over the logistics to me! Taught bravo line dance for their campfire, it was based on my donkey years of memories!

I sat at the driver's seat of Wilson Boey's car, the brake super sensitive, I just gently tapped on the brake and the whole car jumped! We were bored while waiting for the rest to finished their debrief that Joshua, Wilson Teo and I started playing with Eusoff's bike!

Went Marina South for steamboat as it was Daph's birthday, saw Bing Sheng! He has grown! My old injury came back again! My right ankle was in pain when walking! Hopefully it will heal before next SATURDAY!

PS: Jason Gan, remember to talk to Dua Peh Gong and asked him to inform his whole committee!

2006-11-30T16:58:00.000+08:00

D.I.S.C

Forgot to mention abt the career seminar that I attended in NYP yesterday. The best part is during the Behavioural Style Analysis, it helps us to understand and refine our work and management style, we will be able to see and understand ourselves as never before and be better prepared to show how we can live and work effectively.

I did the test in 2003 when I was secondary 4, my behaviour style was Dominant which all my friends including myself totally second for. I was very competitive, independent, strong-willed, result oriented and the list go on.

Now in 3 years later, my behaviour style is Influencing, but my characteristics of being dominant has never change. I am a mixture of both style now.

The speaker told us a inspiring story, I shall share with all my readers [:

CARROT. EGG or COFFEE BEAN?

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what do you see?"
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they got soft.She then asked her to take an egg and break it.

After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.
Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked. "What's the point, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity--boiling water--but each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?"

Now think about life. Life is not always easy. Life is not always comfortable. Sometimes life is very hard. Things don’t happen like we wish. People don’t treat us like we hope. We work very hard but get few results. What happens when we face difficulties?

Think about the pots. The boiling water is like the problems of life.

We can be like the carrots. We go in tough and strong. We come out soft and weak. We get very tired. We lose hope. We give up. There is no more fighting spirit. Don’t be like the carrots!

We can be like the eggs. We start with a soft and sensitive heart. We end very hard and unfeeling inside. We hate others. We don’t like ourselves. We become hard-hearted. There is no warm feeling, only bitterness. Don’t be like the eggs!

We can be like the coffee beans. The water does not change the coffee powder. The coffee powder changes the water! The water has become different because of the coffee powder. See it. Smell it. Drink it. The hotter the water, the better the taste.

We can be like the coffee beans. When things are at their worst, we get better and change the situation around us. When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do we elevate to another level? We make something good from the difficulties we face. We learn new things. We have new knowledge, new skills, new abilities. We grow in experience. We make the world around us better.

To succeed, we must try… and try again. We must believe in what we are doing. We must not give up. We must be patient. We must keep pushing. Problems and difficulties give us the chance to become stronger… and better… and tougher.

What are we like when things do not go well?Are we like the carrot… or the egg… or the coffee bean?

Be like the coffee bean!

Don't tell GOD how big your storm is. Tell the storm how big your GOD is!

2006-11-30T12:23:00.000+08:00

pain.fun.tired

My right eye contact lens dropped during my tutorial and can never be found thus I am a single-eye Joan yesterday! My right eye was in pain since I didn't realised that my contact lens dropped, as I have been rubbing my eyes trying to get it our of my eye!

Went to yishun to make a new contact lens before we headed towards Chinatown for our frog leg porridge! JASON KOH YONG JUN board the same train as us and I bet he suffered blue-blacks from me, as I have been beating him from Yio Chu Kang till town!

Brought the guys to People Park food centre for some fried dumpings before we made our way for frog porridge. We had alot for our dinner and all of us were bloated! The pics will tell you all!

After dinner, we decided to go walk around and to our surprise, we found alot of retro tibits at CK departmental store. The guys were taking lots of funny pictures, i shall grad hold of them soon and show you guys how gay they are [:

it was a tired day for me, I slept on the bus all the way from chinatown till CCK.

2006-11-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

pain.fun.tired

shall blogged tml [:

2006-11-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

hardworking

joan ow has started to gear towards her academic! she has started to be hardworking!

Although abit late but at least I am willing to suffered for this last semster! I am starting to go around lecturers who know me well for testimonals, for my uni applications. [:

LAST SEMSTER [:

2006-11-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

deja vu

Many scenes seem familiar to me, and I bet it is deja vu. It is good or bad?

Went to ECP on saturday before meeting the rest at campsite, I walked from ECP to campsite, it is just like another exercise impartiality. Slacked at campsite before making our way for some frog porridge at Geylang, we saw something interesting there.

Intially we wanted to go Eski bar, but Denise was unable to enter the bar thus we changed our chilling place to Wala-wala, to our surprise Holland Vill was very empty on a Saturday night.

Reached home at around 10am this morning [:

Went for a jog around my estate, I estimated well as it started pouring when I just reached home, if not I would have to jog in the rain. Aren't it romantic? ]:

2006-11-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

closefriends

how do we define close friends? here is the defination that daphen gave me.

close friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. Often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. most impt is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them.

it let me ponders

2006-11-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

pain

When I had deep breath, somewhere near my rib cage feel pain and I have to slowly breath in so that there will have no pain, have been feeling so for the past 1 week.

It get worst today, at that moment I thought I am gona have a heart attack soon. Decided to see doctor and not to worry, there is nothing to do with my heart or lungs!

2006-11-22T11:03:00.000+08:00

not.good

have not been feeling too good these 2 days, especially on monday, monday blues does affect me this week. Teared in the train is something that I never thought will happend, it was a moment of truth for me, a moment that I hope I had them before everything had happened, walked to Singapore river and had some time just for reflection.

When the tears rolled down my cheeks, it doesn't mean I am weak, it means that I am getting stronger.

2006-11-20T11:31:00.000+08:00

updates.updates

Actually I have forgotten everything, maybe some pointers will help [:

17.11.06
Went to carrie's mum coffeeshop to have dinner, the food taste good and everyone was looking at the 2 cars when we were in sch!

Jason, Qihui and I were lost on our way to some prata shop at Bukit Timah for evac meeting, Denise and Daph screamed like mad when they saw xiao qiang, all of us were affected by them

18.11.06
Went over to airport with Jason and Daph to look for Qihui before going to circular TCC as Josh is treating! The bill is just like a stock market as he keep asking for updates.

Decided to pick Qihui up at the airport, we basically travelled the whole Singapore before we went Kenny hse.

19.11.06
Qihui, Jason and I decided not to go home and went to kayu for prata, we sat there till 6am before taking cab to airport. We woke up a mad lady at the viewing gallery.

Went over to airport AGAIN, to pick Qihui up.

Basically Jason and I went to the airport 3 times in a day and we were welcomed to Singapore each time we left the airport.

2006-11-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

someupdates

I bought my new toy on 12.11.06, sony T10, it looks great and it takes great pictures too. Just loved it [:

I love the song that is at my blog too. Beautiful by kelvin, a local singer. I can just relate alot of things or people to the song.

Hope I can catch 'Step Up' tomorrow and I am gearing up for my goals!

youwillbebackoneday

2006-11-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

firstday

today was my first day of year 3 semster 2! it is the start of my last semster, the feeling is just like any other school day at the beginning but it ends off well with a small talk with ms cheng about my uni. [:

lets work hard for my last semster! i want to go uni [:

2006-11-10T08:44:00.000+08:00

sonyT10

my mum's nets card is with me now, and I am gona get Sony T10 from nicky this sunday!

with T10, I am gona make full use of it! Snap all the un-glam photos! Dont have to wait for our dear Ying Sheng to send us the photos!

sony T10 here I come! Woohoo

2006-11-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

uniforms

i think some guys look great in their uniform. *grins*
was looking through my friendster account and alot of them are already in uniform, which means they have entered a new chapter of their life, interesting. Still remember the days we were playing like kids in WGS, so fast we are now planning for our future.

you guys always get me into troubles, but i can cope them well [:

2006-11-08T08:38:00.000+08:00

kids

Kids are so unpredictable, 2 days before Yu Xuan (stella's niece) didnt want to play with Yu Hui and I, but yesterday just after I sat down, she jumped onto my lap and started playing with me. have been playing with her for around 2 hours, she is a very hyper kid. She even changed my name!

they are so navie and happy, they bring laughter everywhere and lighten the mood too. I feel tired but great after playing with her, she can just simply brings everything away.

2006-11-07T11:58:00.000+08:00

sleep

Have not been sleeping well the past few days, but after talking to my mum finally I have a good sleep yesterday. It feels good when the heavy rock has been taken away, now there is nothing much to worry and I cant be bothered about the rest [:

2006-11-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

manythoughts

04.11.06
went for evac accred in the morning, I reached much eariler than the expected time -_-" it was fun doing evac accred, I smiled during the accred [: Had luch at holland village before going home, all of us thought of going home for a rest before meeting in the evening for coffee at circular tcc, a place when I broke my bf!

In the end, I decided to go for OA gold bbq at ECP. I have to walk from area B to area D before reaching the pit, was walking along the beach and it was great when the sea breeze blows and my mp4 was playing some smoothing songs that allows me to think, think about alot of things. Did I tell you guys that I love going ECP when I am down?

The tcc gang came ECP after their coffee, got bullied by them. -_-" some of them went home while the rest of us went Sempan Bedok for a drink, it was my first time there, it was cool where the whole street sells prata!

Kenny Boey drove us home, dropped off at Yishun and since Jason and I werent tired, we went to Boardway coffeeshop to have a chat, we chatted till 5.30am! A lot of things were running through my mind during the talk, even now!

2006-11-03T13:16:00.000+08:00

fallinginlove

just finished watching the korean show "Full House", I know the show has been out in the market for donkey years and I am slow!

both Rain and Xin(Goong) are the same, just a typical guy who dont express his feelings to the girl he like yet try all his means to keep the girl by his side. They can be cunning yet loving at the same time, it just make a girl melt when they express their feelings in their own way.

iwanteverythingtostayjustlikehowitwas [:

2006-10-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

week

Have not been blogging this week, I do not have the feel of doing anything. So lets have a quick summary of how is my week so as to fill in my readers [:

23.10.06
no work thus have been resting at home [:

24.10.06
went out slacking with Wei Hao and Qing Quan, meet them at causeway point. Both of them was holding some toys from kiddy palace, they look funny with it. Decided to go bishan to slack, walked around and took some funny pictures, waiting for Qing Quan to send me the pictures. Slacked at swensen as usual they took funny pictures again but this time round there is video and I am the lead! -_-

25.10.06 - 27.10.06
working!

28.10.06
Met up with some of our batchmates to buy Alllvin Ee birthday present. With just 4 of us, we occupied a table with 20 seats as Swensen dont take in reservation during the weekends, we were questioned by the manager when it was like 7pm! Both Yuhui and I were in shock and we started calling the rest to hurry up.

Celebrated Alllvin's birthday, we sang the birthday song so loud that all the customers and staff were looking at our table! The guys were so violent, they sabo-ed Alllvin till very jialat, Nicky even poured pepper on him!

Went wala-wala after dinner, Max and David(mugger beng)were the red brothers! their face were red after drinking but not drank yet! After drinking, we went Thomson for some prata. The man at the prata shop just passed the order slip to Nicky, all of us were laughing like mad as it makes Nicky looks like one of them especially when he took the order slip to the man!

explaining the orders!

Nicky looks serious when explaining the orders, but he still take down the wrong orders, no wonder he is only paid 5 cents per hour!

P2 always thought the guys that revolved around me are only jason; ambrose practically all the RC guys but she changed her thinking when she saw me on 21.10.06 with a group of guys! *grins* they are all not bad right! hehe

arent they "cute"

p2

chicky boy! (chee keong)

and I have found my mugger specs! whee [:

2006-10-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

notfeelingood

Have not been feeling good these days as in my emotions, I cant explain the feelings. It feels weird, and it make me feel worst. It is like you feel like crying but no tears flows drop your cheek or you feel like shouting but no voice come out from your vocal.

You think everything is set in your favour,
But life puts many curves in your path.
One small twist can bring an entirely different fate.

2006-10-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

deathnote

Went "dating" with my poly gang today, to celebrate Qing Quan 20th Birthday! Our organiser, Mr Terence Wong was late when he told us not to, went Vivocity to purchase the movie tickets for Deathnote but they were sold-out thus we got our tickets for Plaza Sing.

Had our early dinner at the glass house Fish & Co before the movie, our birthday boy got his birthday ice-cream from the resturant!

Deathnote was great, and it make me crave for the anime and comics!

Hope to go for some shopping spree soon, but I have decided to put them on hold. Since my gang likes going JB for shopping spree, I shall joined them the next trip and see if I am able to purchase my stuff there as the price will be cheaper! I will be buying Deathnote full comic series from JB!

More movies coming out and they looks great! *grins*

usual gathering!

Yong Hock and Jason decided to jio people to Vivocity today, since I will be with my poly gand in the late evening decided to join them in the afternoon. When I reach harbourfront at 2.15pm, which is 15 minutes later than the meeting time, I only managed to see Yong Hock.

Being nice, I helped him to call the other organiser, Mr Jason Gan! Called him for like 30 times before he wake up. As usual, he overslept! Met up with my poly gang while Yong Hock walked around Vivocity waiting for the rest!

A reminder to all organisers: Don't plan for last minute outing and don't be late if you are the organiser. [:

2006-10-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

jnc

Went out with jnc today, it has been quite some time since I last join them for gatheringas I was held out with other events. As usual, our late queens are late and we waited for Jessica for 15 minutes, Pei Hua for an hour, Yah Fong for many many hours.

Went shopping, and dinner last but not least coffee; introduced TCC to all of them, we had a great time "digging" Sandy's and Yah Fong's love history! I got bluffed again, Yah Fong has a bf and they started since March!

It was great meeting all of them, hope I can make it for the next few gatherings. We will have a farewell party for Judee in Jan before she fly to Perth for her studies, and she will be there for 5 years!

2006-10-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

pacifier

It shows how much a 19 year-old teenager hopes to turn the clock and be a carefree baby who only eat, sleep, play, laugh when someone plays with them with no worries, just like the playful Baby Zenden.

2006-10-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

boss

Our boss was in super good mood today! She even chit-chat with us during lunch! We were talking about sliming, even since I joined the company, everyone is talking about sliming, my influence is BIG [:

My supervior told me that our boss want her to keep in contact with me, maybe I will be back again as part timer, and by then I wouldnt be drawing a ay of less than $500! [:

2006-10-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

destoryed.parents

To be frank, I have tried to 'destory' myself before. Let's spare the deatils

If you are thinking of ways to 'destory' your life either now or before, let me tell you something that have sort of change my view and hopefully it will give you a different view too.

First of all, let me ask you a question. How did you ended up on the mother Earth?

Many will answered, my mum gave birth to me xx years ago thus I am here and blah blah blah. The answer is definitely right, but do you know that millions of your brothers and sisters were killed just to let ONE and ONLY YOU to come to this world? You have decided to shoulder the responsibilities to see every beautiful things in this world and you have unknowingly promised the millions of them to live life to the fullest.

I am not teaching biology here and I will never in future. If you don't know, you have swam with all your might and you have went through all the obstacles just to meet the 'egg'.

You are not the only one who went through the 'process' , your parents and everyone around you were affected too. I can't tell every individual, how the process has affected you or your parents, but I do know that you are the BEST gift that your parents has ever received.

Do spare a thought for yourself, if not your parents. They have spend so much on YOU, be it time, money or LOVE. Have you told them how much you love them? or gave them the hug that is filled with love?

Ending your life now will make you free from all the pain and worries or you maybe hoping that after all the 'destorying' you will be numb, but all the actions will bring more pain for your loved one, especially your parents who have bought you to this world.

For those who have never thought of ending/destoying your life, here is a story for you to reflect on:

The Apple Tree

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday. He climbed to the tree top, ate the apples, and took a nap under the shadow. He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him.

Time went by. The little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree everyday. One day, the boy came back to the tree and >he looked sad. "Come and play with me," the tree asked the boy. "I am no longer a kid, I don't play around trees anymore." The boy replied, "I want toys. I need money to buy them." "Sorry, but I don't have money but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money."The boy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.

One day, the boy returned and the tree was so excited. "Come and play with me," the tree said. "I don't have time to play. I have to work for family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?" "Sorry, but I don't have a house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house." So the boy cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the boy never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.One hot summer day, the boy returned and the tree was delighted. "Come and play with me!" the tree said. "I am sad and getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?" "Use my trunk to build your boat. You can sail far away and be happy." So the boy cut the tree trunk to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.

Finally, the boy returned after he left for so many years. "Sorry, my boy. But I don't have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you." the tree said. "I don't have teeth to bite" the boy replied. "No more trunk for you to climb on" "I am too old for that now" the boy said. "I really can't give you anything. The only thing left is my dying roots" the tree said with tears. "I don't need much now,just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years." The boy replied."Good! Old tree roots is the best place to lean on and rest. Come, sit down with me and rest." The boy sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears.

This is a story of everyone. The tree is our parent. When we were young, we loved to play with our parents. When we grew up, we left them. Only came to them when we needed something or when we were in trouble. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they can to make you happy. You may think the boy is cruel to the tree but that's how most of us are treat our parents.

Let us do as much as we can for our parents just like how you would like your children to do for you in future

*Dont ask me what had happend to me x years ago as I have tried to forget*

2006-10-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

nosebleed

People say that you will nose bleed when you see shuai ge or mei nu. Indeed my nose bleed, but without any shuai ge or mei nu in front of me!

I have not fully recover from my flu, cough and sore throat and my nose just bleed when I blow my nose and it is not just a drop or two but many many drops! At the first thought, I have fear that I have nose cancer, but come to think about it, it must be the heatiness! as the weather hasn't been friendly to any of us these days.

The PSI hit 130 this afternoon, it is pretty bad. Years ago, when the haze visited Singapore, my friends and I were hoping that PSI reading will reached 300 as we will have no schools by then, but now I hope I can fix a HUGE fan in the sky and blow all the haze back to it home town! Lets hope 'they' will be kind to all of us on Earth and have a downpour SOON in the 'burning' country!

My nose is very fragile now! ]:

2006-10-15T01:52:00.000+08:00

gettingbetter [:

As stated in my previous post, I was terribly sick. After taking my medication yesterday, I slept till around 9pm and went back to sleep again at 12am. When you are sick, you have the privilege of sleeping for 20 hours! YES, plus and minus, I slept for 20 hours and my air-con was on for freaking 24 ++ hours.

Went to cut my hair today, feel much lighter now. Have the thought of hightlighting my hair, but come to think about it, I havent decide of what shocking colour I want and I maybe going back for unit trainings thus I just dyed a base colour to cover my white hairs. Meet the rest for dinner and coffee, as usual went arcade after that, but this time round with additional members of Jianfu, Poh Boon and Ying Sheng.

I am getting better, thanks for all the concerns. [:

2006-10-13T14:57:00.000+08:00

iamsick ]:

I have not felt so terrible for such a long time. Have been coughing, sneezing and throat feeling funny, and the worst came last night. My body was burning but I was feeling cold, was tossing on my bed till around 3am before I slept.

Decided to take MC for the day and rest at home, it has been long since I can sleep till 12noon on a weekday, watched some cartoons and now back home after seeing the doctor. Shall go lie on my bed and try to rest abit.

Any programme for tomorrow?

2006-10-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

I have nothing to lost [:
I love my timetable [:

2006-10-09T18:39:00.000+08:00

stayingcool

My weekends were made free and I have rejected the offer for the forum, but after many emails and smses flying around, it seems like we were unable to have our free time with them thus I agreed to go for the forum. Yet in the middle of the week, I was told that weekends are back to us again, was caught in a dilemma; to reject the other party again?

I am sorry but I wouldn't want to reject a party twice. I appreciated the effort that have put in to communicate with the organisation, but do consider and realised that not everyone is the same or has the same priority.

Responsibilities. I have promised my responsibilites to be there if the slot is ours. Indeed, it was ours in the end but at such a last minute notice when I have prepared myself for the forum and I have rejected the forum once.

As much as I wished I was there on sunday, but would you want your viruses to be spread to the students and let "them" be part of their memories?

I understand and appreciated the effort and help given by the others in the hosting process. Gald that you guys have enjoyed yourseleves over the weekend

If I were to shift responsibilites, I would not have replied emails and smses or even meet up till late for their visits. Bear in mind, everyone have their own principles. [: